myStory

2006-05-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

2day went 2 ice skating wit my dance grp.. hmmm.. i din skate @ all.. nt really la.. wasted moi $$.. all bcos i was scared... *~sobsob~*... scare fall down.. scare pain.. scare will throw face.. hmmm.. mrs forced mii 2 go into d ring.. i struggled moi way through 1/2 of it.. @ least i tried abit kkeas.. hmmm.. lucky dear came 2 save mii... XD.. no la.. actually he came fetch mii.. den we went 4 dinner.. in d mrt i played wit him till he got angry.. *~hee~* darlin' sorry la.. i'm still young ma.. *~hahaha*~..

2006-05-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

thx god i had made it home frm camp... it was such a boring n horrible camp... pll there literally starved mii, torture mii n tot mii a lesson of learning how 2 cherish wadeva tat i've back here... d food was almost inedible... little n taste bad... d games was kinda lame.. i hate d flying fox... when i jumped off d tower.. i tot my heart is still on d tower... i even cried n vomitted... poor mii...*~sobsob~* den d whole nite i was sick... i'm soooo happy tat i'm still ALIVE ppl...*~clapsclaps~*

2006-05-22T04:09:00.000-07:00

hmmm... mii going 2 camp le.. gonna miss my dear dear n my baobao alot wor... although jus 4 3 days onli XP.. haiz.. i hate d mosquitoes!!! kan wait 2 c wad nonsense i'm gonna make there.. hee.. hmm.. gonna receive report bk le!! NIGHTMARES!! Aaaarrrrhhh!!X(

2006-05-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.. long time din update my blog le.. hmmm.. had been pretty busy recently.. gotta struggle btw wprk, study, cca n time 4 my dear dear.. jus realized i'm nt a superwoman.. my grades had been damn poor man.. hmmm.. time 4 me 2 gif up 1 job le.. haiz.. wish i get6 a better pay job.. which won take up so much of my time.. hmm.. if u happen 2 noe any.. inform me kkk?? really gotta pull up my socks in d nxt half of d yr le.. haiz.. dunno how 2 show my parents my report card...

2006-05-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

2day is my 2.4 run.. man!! i'm sooo damn tired... hopefully i pass.. but i guess i didi ba... :)

2006-05-01T02:03:00.000-07:00

3rd day off work..
d ppl here r more frenly 2day.. hmmm.. or i shld say.. d ppl tat working 2day r frenlier dan ppl working yesterday.. tis ppl r cuter.. in term of character la.. there's 1 guy he's pretty caring.. always help mi whenever possible.. hmm.. but 2 bad.. he's leaving soon le.. there's 1 humorous 1.. always try 2 crack jokes.. dere's 1 sis hu's very caring 2.. always ask me if i tired or nt.. if yes.. go take rest.. ask me if i wan a drink.. always look after me..
ok.. enough of d good ppl.. nw d nt gd ones.. der's 1 bloody bitch hu jus simply dun understand ENGLISH.. she clear d lobby.. i wash d dishes.. she bring in d dishes.. i told her 2 bring it in nearer.. cos i kan reach out.. but she juz simply put them dere.. i dunno how many tyms i must repeat.. but she juz simply dun understand// but i tink she's ignoring me.. instead of clearing up d lobby.. she kept running into d counter... dunno do wad.. den lata mor n mor dishes got stacked up.. i gotta wash lik xiao..
hmmm.. i seriously in need of $$ man.. so i've decided 2 take 2 jobs.. hopefully i can cope wit it ba.. haiz..

2006-04-27T02:32:00.000-07:00

Tings r gettin so complicated nowadays.. i dun seem 2 understand any1 anymorr.. m i changin?? or d ppl around mii... y kan tings jus remain as wut it used 2 b?? y do ii habb 2 grow upp?? ii jus wanna remain in moi barbie world.. wherr magicals exist.. adult world r soo confusin.. ii hate growin up.. gotta watch moi back.. every1 habb a motive.. tis is so sickenin n tirin.. ii fallin apart.. jus a stupid mistak is gonna tear us apart?? y kan moi tinkin remain simple?? derr's jus 2 many pros in moi heart rite naw.. hu shld i turn 2?? will tat person tel mii d truth?? it's so hard.. kan angels cum n save mii naw?? or heartache r jus kan b cured?? moi heart is bleeding...

2006-04-18T06:08:00.000-07:00

They say god created me 4 a purpose.. 4 a reason.. I dun c it @ all.. All i've been doing was onli hurting ppl around me.. I kan help in anything.. Yet i've been creating more n more troubles.. N d troubles jus getting worst.. All i could do was 2 cry over it n run away frm d situation.. Solutions which i tot would solve d pros, turn out 2 b jus my methods of running away.. God gave me a brain.. But sumhow i jus dunno how 2 put it to use.. I'm onli gd @ running away frm d situation.. Sumtym i tot of dying.. But dying is jus another attempt 2 run away.. I'm jus a gutless crying baby.. I've tried sooo hard 2 grow up.. b indepedence.. But sumhow it always turn out tat ppl solve my pro 4 me.. or worst.. take d blame 4 me.. I jus hate myself 4 being myself...

2006-04-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

Hiaz... Exams cuminn le.. soo stressed...

2006-03-27T05:51:00.000-08:00

haiz... i wishe i could have done better @ d esplanade performance man... gosh... i made so many mistakes... haiz... wad a shame man... but luckily nt many ppl noticed it... wad a memorable nite... how much i wish it could last longer...

2006-03-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

The esplanade performance is drawing closer n closer le.. but strangely i dun feel nervous @ all.. i feel rather excited... kan wait... haiz... so sad tat i din get 2 learn d dream of madien dance... n no1 is cuming 2 watch my performance... haiz..

2006-03-20T05:48:00.000-08:00

I feel so blessed... Having all d good frens around me.. whom will nv let me feel lonely... n a gd sis hu is alwaways there... through my all n all... despite being busy wif works n sop many things else... n a loving bf... hmmm.. by n by... i kept falling in love wif him... so much tat i begin 2 feel scared le... scare tat i may fall 2 deep tat i kan get out... scared but nv regret... hope he will read my blog... dear dear... jus wanna say... i love so much more than u can imagine..

2006-03-16T07:14:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I feel very down... ppl think tat i'm jus a jealous kid... But rite nw i feel abondaned... Feeling unwanted... Haiz... I jus wanna scream my heart out loud... No matter how sad i felt... I have tried my very best 2 keep it inside my heart... Trying nt 2 show 2 tat person tat i'm unhappy cos... i afraid tat tat person may feel sad as well... haiz... I should b happy tat tat person found sum1 2 pei tat person... While i kan do d same.. I kan chat on d phone till morning.. I'm childist... Unable 2 help tat person solve her trouble or make tat person happy... Haiz... Should i b happy or b sad... Feeling so unwanted...

2006-03-10T06:35:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... 2day there's a really pretty teacher cum 2 teach us dance... She danced real nice... Her posture was beautiful... I suddenly realized i need mor training n practices... Suddenly fell tat i dance so ugily... Haiz... Sad arhz....

2006-02-16T03:22:00.000-08:00

Oh GoD!! mE siCk liaO... DiarReA AgaIn!!! aNd wOrse oF all... I'M GoNNa miSss d StuDent counCil camp... HoW stUpid can TaT bE!!! I mIss d 1st CamP eveR... ARRrrrrHH!!! Y m I sOooo baD LuCk!!!

2006-02-15T03:05:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... Mii nw finally 16... But my sweet 16th bdea din turn out quite sweet... d party was dead boring... D ppl din really noe each other so they all were kinda shy... den no1 talk... they ended up hanging out in small grps.. all d games i organised oso nv play... sum when 2 rent bikes then disappeared... Worse of all... My bf was kinda ignore mi... n were treating my god sis way 2 nice tat it pissed mi off... Oh man!! i felt lik crying on tat day... Then i reached back home.... kanna scolding frm my dump dump daddy... Then i cried again... Y is my sweet 16th bdea filled wif tears??

2006-02-09T04:24:00.000-08:00

Tat betrayer still have face 2 ask me 4 4giveness.. Bu yao lian... Aaarrhhh!! she still say mii snatched her fren... Anyhow say i asked ppl nt 2 fren her... Jus nw in class i sat alone.. Without a single fren...
she say i hurt her... Then wad abt me?? I din get hurt?? Backstabbed me... Still act as if she's d victim...

2006-02-09T03:57:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... I wonder why ppl keep saying tat i'm proud... Wad did i do?? I ahd retained myself frm talking much in class... I onli inetreact wif my REAL fren... When ppl talk i responded, even though i hate tat person 2 d core... Haiz... Even in a grp i oso shut my mouth n did wadeva d rest tell mii 2... But y y y ppl still wanna say mi proud??? Wad should i do so tat u guys r happy??

2006-02-08T04:02:00.000-08:00

Wad would u do if u found out tat sum1 u trust betrayed u?? I've trusted a gal... N took her as sis... But she went 2 let out my secrets.. How sad... I really do miss our happy tyms 2gether.. i have closed 1 eye 2 her actions... But she jus dun get it... Kept making it as if it's my fault 4 all tat happened... Nw i really dun wanna care abt it anymore... D sight of her really pissed me off... Aaarrhh!! Frm nw on.. I'll jus close my eyes... Shut my ears... I've trusted her so much...
I noe part of it is my fault too.. Tat's y i had closed my eyes... Nw i'm tired... So i will jus let it go...

2006-02-04T02:19:00.000-08:00

Jus cut my hair yesterday... Hmm... Wonder if it's nice or nt... Sum say it suits me, sum say it doesn't... Haiz... I jus wish i dun look 2 awful in it...